Friday, August 2, 2013

Topic of the Day:
Getting the last word. 

This phrase seems to play a major role in my personality----an inability to allow others, especially those who I find to be ignorant, unjust, rude, or just plain wrong, to have the "final" say in a conversation and/or argument.  I find this phrase to be especially annoying when I KNOW I am valid in my comments, opinions, thoughts, or feelings.  As if, I am unable to completely and wholly process their side of the story or argument.  It resonates in my head for days, often weeks because I was unable to verbalize those residual feelings.  Unfortunately, those feelings often create a mock-dialogue in my head that is almost impossible to erase.  (Much like an inner dialogue, but this conversation plays out in your everyday thought process.)  SO ANNOYING.  I feel like my "getting the last word" is the nail in the coffin that allows me to justify, uphold, and support my character, feelings, or plainly, my side of the story-----as if nothing was left unsaid.  "What if....."  "I should have......"  Ugh.  These words are like mosquito bites that never go away.  Ugh.